Marley Wilson

My Marley, Words cannot describe how heartbroken I am to have lost you and how much I miss you. Sometimes, you forget to treasure the little moments, and life goes by so fast until it stops you dead in your tracks. You were going to celebrate your 9th birthday in May. You were much too young. I thought we had at least 4 more good years together. You were a unique character, so many unique traits so unlike for a golden. You protected me and I protected you. We were Bonnie and Clyde. That was engraved in my brain when the behaviorist said that about us. And he was right. You don’t know how much you’ll miss someone until they’re gone. We did everything together. I was dreading the day this would happen. It all went so fast in the end. I didn’t know you had cancer, and to that extent. You were just a big puppy inside, full of life. A strong boy never showing pain, I wish you would have in the end, just maybe we would have had a fighting chance. I know you were willing to fight to stay with me. I saw it in your eyes. But I couldn’t let you go through all those surgeries and pain just for me to have you around another few months. I knew time was there when you stopped drinking and deteriorating right in front of my eyes, helplessly watching time go by, and so, your life. I’m sorry my sweet boy. I wanted to fix you so badly. Only after seeing the ultrasound, I knew the time I was dreading so much was here. I didn’t leave your side that day. As hard as it was for me to watch, I didn’t want you to go without me. It was my turn to protect you. I let you go because I love you. I always will. You were my first dog, and you’ll always have a special place in my heart. I’ve been watching videos and looking at pictures of you every day since. Even though I miss you terribly, I have to smile when I see them. You always made me smile. I’m grateful we were able to take you swimming one last time in the fall of 2020, seeing you with the other dogs, running like no tomorrow and happy. I never would have thought you had a tumor growing in you that would, in the end, take up all your energy. If I could’ve taken that cancer from you instead, I would have in a heartbeat, just to have you back in my life. I miss you, Marley. Very much. And I’m thankful to have been given the chance to be your mom. The bond we had, I never would have thought was possible. We didn’t need words. Just a look. You were so smart. I know you are having the time of your life running and catching balls. And just like I told you on our last day – it’s not goodbye, it’s I will see you soon. I love you, Marley. Always. Your Mom

Marley Wilson

February 10, 2021